Love and Hate

I have had quite an accomplishment this Summer, first by returning to college after 8 years while working full-time and being a full-time mom and wife. But I just can't take my eyes off the prize which at this time is to finish my degree. Work has been kinda hectic since I moved from my previous job to be closer to school and now that I could leave earlier to go to college. It is worth the sacrifice cause I just recieved my second grade and both are A's. I now feel even more motivated to study harder and to challenge myself. I've also registered for more courses in the fall now that I understand what is required. This past week I have had time to relax myself a great deal since my course is over. It is such a relief coming home early and not having assignments due the next day. Work is work, there I'm always busy. Today, I had to train someone for another site. I really don't like training staff because it really takes alot but I get alot of credit from my managers when I train someone new or do stuff that's not in my job description. Besides my director has become a very good friend of mine and she is always there if I need a favor or there is any promotion she does recommend me, another reason that I need my degree so I am not limited to what I can apply for. Actually, she was the one that suggests that I go back to college. I have a great job and it pays ok without a degree. Most people have a degree but don't make half as much so I wasn't planning to go back to college but I don't want to limit myself. I also get alot of insentives from friends at work that I love. It's all about teamwork!

I really don't have any enemies or rivals from my past or present, however, there are some people that I no longer wish to have as aquaintances. People that used to be my friend at one point in time but have grown up to be so very painfully different that I wish to say I never knew them. This is where I would cease all contact with people that are leading a disgraceful life. Another set of former friends are quite the opposite and think that they are better of that being friends with me which is totally fine with me. I don't need the "show off" as my friends anyway. Well, some people you just "click" with right away and well my instincts are most times right when it comes to judging people. Then there are the male friends who I honestly don't have any of, well ever since I got married, and that's not the reason, most of my male friends were from college whom I simply lost contact with. However, some guys think that we could be friends when I know it is not friendship they are after. So, true friends are hard to find and when you do have such friends you should cherish your friendship.

Well it rained again today as well as yesterday, but I could no longer stay indoors so we (my husband and son) decided to visit my in-laws who are visiting from Florida and since it's Father's Day we got something for my Father-in-law. I helped my son make a Father's Day Card for his dad which he loved, I also got him a card. However I really wanted to get him a new ipod headset but the store clerk said that they were sold out. He was a little disappointed and so was I. He's been complaining that he can only hear from one side of the headphone for weeks. I'll definitely check again this week to see if they are back in stock. It's really not my fault he is so picky about that particular kind. We had lunch by my in-laws and then went to do some shopping at Wal-mart. I got some party favors for my son's upcoming birthday on Tuesday and some grocery (which is so expensive now). Anyway, as we were leaving the rain came pouring down and we were drenched from head to toe. Well, Father's Day usually reminds me more of my Dad, who passed over two years ago and although it's supposed to be a very happy day I still miss my dad and wish he was still here. But life is such, I can't complain otherwise. It is great to see my husband and my son together, he adores him so much. He is a great father and husband.

I don't have many friends because as soon as I started to open up about my life I feel that they think I have it set. Which is not true at all. I mean, I am not in a terrible situation when it comes to finances or marriage or work. I do have an ok life nothing special, I do work hard and take care of my family but there are many day-to-day ups and downs that I have to sort through. I don't have the perfect life and never will but maybe people see this differently. Now, I hardly talk about my personal life unless I really know that person and don't get any strange vibes from them. I don't feel that I am in competition with anyone, if you have a great family, job etc. great for you, I am happy for anyone who's had accopmlishments. But somehow people don't see that, they are busy comparing notes on who has the better life. Immature, I think so! Who can be trusted? beats me! All I say friends come and go, they are not worth it if they can's see who I truly am.

Well Finals are over and well I am still waiting for my grade, I am kinda anxious to see what I got. My son's birthday was Tuesday, he turned the "big five", he was pretty excited. Wednesday was his last day of pre-school, I don't think he fully understands that he wouldn't be going to that school anymore. The teachers and assistants were great. I am kinda looking forward to him starting Kindergarten, and at the same time a little nervous. I'm sure it'll take some time getting used to. My husband plans to take some days off to take him and pick him up. He has come a long way since he started pre-school. I was worried at first when he was about three, he didn't speak much that others can understand and then he started pre-school and it made all the difference. We almost didn't take him, mostly because he was so clingy and not fully potty trained and we taught he was still too young. Here we are 2 years later and loves to write, color, read and ask millions of questions.